Self Talk


A few days ago I posted about Daddy/Daughter love, and acknowledged the joy I feel in knowing that God is my father and that He loves me.  

That aside, my "self talk" is extremely negative.

I often call myself things like, "idiot", "fatty", "stupid dumbass"...

I honestly don't know when it started - whether it was before or after my divorce...and I know about all of the articles that tell me how much such talk has a way of eroding my own self-esteem and self-worth.  But every pound I gain, every silly thing I do, seems to confirm my worst suspicions about me, and so rather than speaking "life" to myself, I am often doing just the opposite.

This past week however I woke up to a beautiful sky.  As the first light crept over the horizon, the sky was literally streaked with color...each color of the rainbow getting it's own distinct ribbon.  It was amazing!  It was incredible!  

And I felt God.

And I knew that the morning sky, and what I was seeing was for ME.  A gift.  A present from a Father who loves me.

And these verses came to mind:

"So God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them." - Genesis 1:27

"The Spirit of God has made me, and the breath of the Almighty gives me life." - Job 33:4

"Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations." - Jeremiah 1:5

God created me.  What's more, He created me in His Own Image. He purposefully brought me to life, and He set me apart to do things on His behalf. 

When I think about THAT, it seems my negative self talk might actually be criticizing Him. 

That is definitely NOT something I want to do.

And I remember this:

"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels no demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." - Romans 8:38-39

God loves me.  God...the creator of the universe!  He created me.  He knows me.  And he LOVES me.  

THAT is the self talk I should be repeating in my head!


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